How am I going to do this?

I wasn't going to post this but I want this blog to include most of what I am thinking/doing even the bad stuff…

Yesterday I went out to dinner with my friends, I had such a great time (pictures to come)! My one friend is studying abroad next semester like me only she will be in France. It was so nice to talk about it to someone who is going through what I am going through. We talked about 'meeting up in Paris' (how cool and casual does that sound?) and her coming to visit me in Rome! It is amazing to think that in a little over three months all of my planning will have paid off and I will be on a plane to Roma. How did this happen? It feel likes yesterday I was sitting in my first day of Italian I during the summer.

So, I have noticed a trend in my life or at least in my emotions. If one day I am extra, extra hyper and excited the next will bring me back to reality or even worse pessimism. Today I had to go home to watch my dogs while my parents were out. I was sitting there alone watching the series finale of 'Sex and the City' and I a thought popped into my head…'Hope, what are you doing? How on earth are you going to Rome by yourself?' For those of you who are not fans of 'Sex and the City', the finale shows Carrie in Paris away from everything and everyone she knows. It is funny how television can help you understand your own life sometimes. After finishing the episode, I realized it was just what I needed. I need to understand how much my life will be changing in three months. I know that sounds dramatic but I think it is better than thinking my life will be perfect once I am in Rome. I am so scared and nervous but as the saying goes

 life starts at the end of your comfort zone.